If you take too long.....

And Another

Ok, I know the title caught you off guard. Let me explain! I lost another, and another. I lost another night of sleep thinking about all the things I have gotten involved into this year alone. Why? Why? Why? I continue to do this to myself. If I don't learn from the past I am doomed to repeat it. I did this last year too. Will we go for another one. I should be out of this by now. But no, I want to become a better person, a better man, a writer, a better friend, a better student, a better brother, a better son. I guess I want a lot because I’m a lot of things to a lot of people. A leader, a role model, and a poet. Can’t please all of the people all of the time, and I’m not even gonna try. Not anymore. See the reason I said that is because I decided a long time ago what kind of person I was, when it came to evaluating anything. I think quick and get out. I try not to spend too much time on any one thing. I have always wanted to be writer. And I know everyone is trying.... no they are helping us get there. I should be grateful that such a teacher would prefer to turn students into writers not quitters. I am not going to lose anymore sleep because I'm finally done with this.

Research Research Research

Wow its hard to believe that all I have done was reading, reading, reading, for my research. Did forget to say reading. I have a PhD in research, I could have had a V8, solved world hunger, bought about world peace. No not me, I have to be doing research, research, research, did I forget to say research. I counted all the hours I studied, read, focused on, talked about, drank, slept, research. By now I could have had a PhD in Stem Cell, Nursing, Aerodynamics, Middle Eastern Studies, but no I have a PhD in research. Funny how all of this research didn't bring me any income, a pension, no future, no future, did I say no future. No awards, no honors, no sense of security, funny how it seems doing all this research has turned into a career, my daily ambition, my homework, my to do list today read research, research, research. Don't ask me what I did these past two weeks, because it wasn't like productive like other classes or family or friends or any other activity except research. I was fully employed in the fury of research. Hours upon hours figuring out where to look next, have I probed deep enough, can I check out a couple of other sources first, is this a good reference. I could have finished another poem or book of poems, I could have fought terrorism, build a soup kitchen to feed the homeless. No instead I have wasted hours in the library of boredom. Quiz me I think I know everything about my topic. I'm an expert in the subject, paid full tuition at It's All About The Research University... have you visited? I'm sure you have. See at the door they pat you down for self esteem and a life. Study hard students! You have a paper due on Tuesday entitled "How To Be An Environmentalist While Writing A 500 Page Paper" and include all rough drafts. See now I'm licensed to teach to other hopeless students.